I seriously am pulling my hair out. Well figuratively at least. I absolutely can not think of a name for this little girl! I'm going through the baby name lists online. And putting every name I like in a notepad.
Here's everything I have thus far I'll add more when they come about =]
Sophia Faye-Lynn
Hannah Faye-Lynn
Leah Faye-Lynn
Victoria Faye-Lynn
Brooklyn Faye-Lynn
Kaylee Faye-Lynn
Taylor Faye-Lynn
Aubrey Faye-Lynn
Audrey Faye-Lynn
Aaliyah Faye-Lynn
Kimberly Faye-Lynn
Brooke Faye-Lynn
Trinity Faye-Lynn
Genesis Faye-Lynn
Bethany Faye-Lynn
Bridgit Faye-Lynn
Blair Faye-Lynn
Cadey Faye-Lynn
Callista Faye-Lynn
Caylynne Faye
Candace Faye-Lynn
Cassidy Faye-Lynn
Chantel Faye-Lynn
Chelseigh Faye-Lynn
But I seriously need to pick a damn name!
I'm so ready to have this little girl already! Currently I have a HORRIBLE cold and for some reason I've been getting migraines daily. My son is walking and getting into everything and chasing him around is just wearing me down. Anyway Tony has been taking care of Keith almost all day while I laid in bed with the covers over my head. That was a nice change but I feel guilty for making Tony take all the responsibility today, even though I do it any other day. Anyway, I'm feeling very annoyed with this "friend" she used to complain to everyone but me about how I never try and talk to her or hang out etc. Well recently I've been attempting more communication with her well she just flat out ignores it! I friggin hate people who do that. I'm thinking about just cutting the whole friendship off, it's not worth my aggravation anymore. She wants to complain how I'm not a good friend yet never responds to IMs or calls.
Yesterday my friend Sarah and I took our sons to the mall Keith loved every minute of it lol. We went to walmart afterwards and she snapped this adorable pic of my son and hers in the cart together. I guess that's all for now. Unless I have something else to complain about lol.
Just a rant I suppose.
I get so anxious around this time in pregnancy, I feel like I won't get the things I need for my baby before she's here. I was the same way around this time with my son too. I also feel no matter how many onesies, diapers, wipes etc. I have will never be enough and I will run out or they'll get ruined etc. Ugh. I hate feeling like that.
My name is Rachel. I'm 19 years old and a mother to a wonderful little boy named Keith Thomas & currently expecting a little girl who is due to make her mark on the world starting April 24th 2012 but we all know how due dates go. ;). I live in upstate New York with my fiance. We have a rocky relationship but are trying to make it work we've been together for 3 years. I got pregnant when I was 17 years old with my son had him at 18. Becoming a mother was a life changing event for me. As it is for any woman. I have a bit of a rough history and didn't grow up in an "ideal" situation and I am still struggling to learn how to become a better person then what I've been taught and so far I'd say I'm not doing to bad, given the circumstances and life I was given. I do have one person who helps me out no matter what and gives me a clear view on things when things are foggy and that would be my grandfather he's done more for me then anyone ever has and probably ever will. So much so that my sons middle name is the same as his and he was the one in the delivery room with me and cut the cord. I'm currently 2 years sober as well. I'll get into to that more at some other point though. I'm starting this blog as a way for me to vent, share, laugh and cry at anything that life may throw at me. Makes sense right? Maybe, maybe not. Anyway that's about it for now.
